Resolution Review

It is week two in January, and it is about time of that month where most people drop their resolutions and go about their lives. I, being an ardent believer of resolutions, and just plain stubborn, however, refuse to yield. Yes it is strange, how a person like me, who is widely believed by his circle of friends to suffer from commitment phobia to be so, well, committed to his resolutions. So, I believe it is only perfect for me to review my resolutions and document them for the world to read (the world being those very few readers including you whom I can count with my toes).

Here goes:

Continue fitness regime I started last year with more resolve
Oh how cliché can you get. Yes. Like almost every gay man on this planet (yes this even include the not so typical gay Zat), I need to get fitter. Aside from the minor problem with the weighing scale – nothing major, just a little inaccuracy on the scale department, making me actually three fucking kgs heavier than I really thought I was. How tragic right? At least I have been discipline on the gym department. Not so on the cardio and food. More running? I don't know. Suddenly the only solitary cardiovascular exercise I like to do, is wanking while watching asian porn.

Save money and be more thrifty
This is sadly more of a necessity than anything else. Having worked at a place I loved and found myself in a career where I had always dreamt to be in, and being there for over a year, I found myself in an unfortunate predicament of having no solid savings. I do not have an emergency stash of money anywhere. I have no saving plans. I have insurances and endowment plans I signed up merely for the attractive cash backs options, and the ability to reap the rewards of my premiums on top of the sad interest rates these insurance companies are paying me. Other than that, na da. No fluid cash storage anywhere. I live paycheck to paycheck, and this needs to stop. So I started myself a little excel spreadsheet (and I took a week to learn how to use those excel formulas!) where I document everything I spent on in a month, and suddenly my bank balance is looking healthier than ever. Apparently documenting that expensive $18 lunch and seeing how it affects your budget makes you think twice about doing that again. Inflation you can bite me!

Be a better Designer.
How do one be a better designer? You spent years trying to understand how those designers do what they do and try to do professional design like them. And then you polish up your portfolio, thinking you are all that, and try to apply for a position at a design studio. Getting a position at a design studio is a dream most designers dream of. It's difficult, requires hard work and many give up after endless unsuccessful portfolio interviews. For reasons that is perhaps above me, I was offered a place in a studio. I was exhilarated. Now that I am looking back at my portfolio, I cringed. There is no way I am hired because of that portfolio. Perhaps it's my height. I don't know. All I know is I need to continue be a better designer. How do one be a better designer? I think this is one of those lifelong aims. You may never know, but that's probably the point.

Go back to school
After talking to a few people (my colleagues, friends, people in the industry, recent graduates), I am starting to reconsider this resolution. But I have this strong gut feeling that I need to do this business degree I have been considering for almost a year. Financials is an obstacle, but it's not an obstacle high enough to stand in my way.

Love more
Still trying.